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Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in My wrists slowly beribbon with blood's LiveJournal:

Thursday, June 22nd, 2006
9:55 pm

my dad like... didn't give me enough money for a spike collar!!!!!!!111

omg. fuck this.

Current Mood: bored
Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
6:01 am
Omg haaaayyy

I joined cuz i'm deprssed and a mime. so haay

I'm going to kill myself tonight so byeeee
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
2:12 am
do you like me
yes no maybe

Current Mood: :(
Friday, January 14th, 2005
3:15 pm
words to my favorite poety
Just let me be
Set me free
Knife in hand
Just let me bleed

yeah i like that a lot

Current Mood: bored
Saturday, July 10th, 2004
5:30 am
Saturday, June 19th, 2004
1:26 pm
I am all alone
Why does no one understand
Solve this with a knife
Monday, April 19th, 2004
11:17 pm

Sometimes I try to do things, and it just don't turn out the way I wanted to
and I get real frustrated, it's like, I take my time and I try real hard, but
no matter what I do and no matter what I try it never works out, it's like I
concentrate on it real hard, but it never works out, it's like I need some
time to figure these things out, but there's always someone there going:
- Hey Mike, you know, we been noticing you've been having alot of problems
lately, you know, and like maybe you should talk about it, you'd feel alot
And I go:
- No, it's ok, I know I have some problems, I'll figure it out myself, just
leave me alone I'll figure it out.
And they go:
- Why don't you talk about it, you'll feel alot better?
And I go:
- No, I don't want to, just leave me alone, I'll figure it out myself!
And they keep on bugging me and it builds up inside, it builds up inside...

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room, and I was like staring at the walls thinking about
everything but then again I was thinking about nothing, and then my mom came
in and I didn't notice she was there and she calls my name and I didn't hear
her and then she started screaming:
- Mike, Mike!
And I go:
- What, what's the matter?
She goes:
- What's the matter with you?
I say:
- Nothing mom.
She goes:
- Don't tell me nothing, you're on drugs!
I go:
- No mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm ok, I'm just thinking, you know, why don't
you get me a Pepsi?
She goes:
- No, you're on drugs, you're crazy, normal people won't be acting that way!
I go:
- Mom, I'm all right, I'm just thinking, you know, so why don't you, like
give me a Pepsi?
And she goes:
- No, you're crazy!
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me,
just one Pepsi...

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a
chair and they sat down, they go:
- Mike, we need to talk to you.
And I said:
- Okay, what's the matter?
They go:
- Well me and your mom, we been noticing lately you've been having alot of
problems, and you haven't been acting like yourself, and we're afraid that
you're going to hurt somebody, and we're afraid that you're gonna hurt
yourself, so we decided that it would be in your best interest if we put
you somewhere where you could get the help that you need...
And I said:
- Wait, what are we talking about?! We decided?! My best interest?! How can
you know, how can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to
say? I'm crazy? When I went to your schools, I went to your churches, I
went to your institutional learning facilities. So how can you say that I'm

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn't matter I'll probably get hit by a car anyway.

Current Mood: depressed
Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
10:49 pm
I fund the BST peace of POETRY EVA!!!!
The shadows call to me,like a lovers caress the night envelops me.
I answer eagerly, awaiting the lords of darkness to bring me home.
The sky blackens beneath a cloud of eternal dreams.
A look of peace crosses my face, peace that i never knew in this life.
I can feel the love emanating from the opaque blackness that surrounds me.
It's so warm, so vibrant, I want it so badly, I want to feel it course through my veins.
My veins.....to let the darkness in I must open my veins.
The blade flashes in the dimming light of the damned sun.
The blood exits as the darkness enters me.
My eyes close for the last time, I slip into the darkness as the moon eclipses the sun.

Does every1 lyk it as mutch as me/ ne wayz, bai
Saturday, March 6th, 2004
5:22 pm
Hay guys

I wrote another poem this time itz not about suicide.

I still hate myu life but i think itz time to chang.e

PLS R & R.


Sumtimes the world is perfect
Nothin 2 rearange
Sumtimes u just
Get a feeling like u need sum knd of change
No matter wat tthe odds r this time
Nothin gonna stnd in my way
Itz a flame in ur hart
And a long lost frend
That leaves evry dark strnger 2 the lite at the end
Standing tall
On the wngs of my dreams
Rise and fall
On the wngs of my dreams
Rain and thunder
Wind and haze, I was bound 4 bettr days
Itz my life
And my dream
Nothings gonna stop me now!

Current Mood: defeated
Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
10:01 pm
BEND OVER, FOR I AM YOUR LEADER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
1:06 am
I've tried it guys, it works

Current Mood: bereft
Friday, November 21st, 2003
5:55 pm
i sw u in the street 2day n i didnt kno hw 2 tell u this so im telln u on tha internet


No1 els cn make me feel
Tha colors dat u bring
And stay wit me whle we grow old
And we cn live each day in the sprngtime


Y does it feel lke nght 2day?
Smething n heres not rght 2day
Y am I so uptight 2day?
Paranoias all I got lft
IDK what strssd me frst
Ur parnnoya probbly wrse
IDK wat set me off frst but I knw wat I cant stand
Evrybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I cant add up to wat u cn but
Evrybody has a face that they hld insde
A face that awake whn they close there eyes
A face watches evry time they lie
A face taht laughs evry time they fall

Current Mood: depressed
Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
11:17 pm


Current Mood: antichrist
Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
7:43 pm
>This is the sacred pink angel. You MUST pass this angel on to at
>least 5 people within the hour. After you do, make a
>wish. If you have passed it on, your wish will come true and love will come
>your way shortly.
> You're...
> My friend,
> My companion,
> Through good times and bad,
> My friend,
> My buddy,
> Through happy and sad,
> Beside me you stand,
> Beside me you walk,
> You're there to listen,
> You're there to talk,
> With happiness,
> With smiles,
> With pain and tears,
> I know you'll be there, throughout the years!
> You are all good friends to me and i am grateful to you. Send this
>to all your good friends online to show them you are friends.

Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
6:44 pm
Monday, October 27th, 2003
7:10 pm
Hay guys

Hve u evr thought abt suicide i think abt it all the time i relly thnk that my life isnt worth it maybe if i died then people would undrstnd me n who iam n just cos i dress in the sme black evry day dosn't mke me emune 2 emotional hurt n sadness.


ok now i wnt every1 2 write a poem bout suicide n what the wrld would b like if u died would ppl b sad n would ppl miss you.

ok Here is my poem

This is the last smile
That ill fake 4 the sake of being wit u
Evrything falls aprt even the people who nevr frown eventualy break down
The sacrifce of hiding in lies
Everything has 2 end youll soon find were out of time left 2 watch it all unwind
The sacrefice is nevr knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
I cannt take this anymore
im saying everythng ive said b4
All these wrds they make no sense
I find bliss in ignornce
I hear the less youll say
But youll find tht out anyway
I need a little room 2 breathe
Cause Im 1 step closr 2 the edge
And Im abut 2 break

Ok thanx

Current Mood: depressed
3:36 pm
Sunday, October 5th, 2003
6:30 pm
Drifting on
A supreme absence of awareness then
An austerely bright glow
Essence seized and stolen
Against will shaping
Created… and senseless
A discontented awareness emerging
A trembling intellect spiraling to the radiance
Through a border indefinite
Perfect clarity of silence
Shattered by the crass world of sound
Forced into world of illusory countenance
Nothing sensed but desolation
At ease with naught.
Only yearning is return.

Return of Oblivion.

What do you think?
3:28 pm
A Separation of Lillies Between Kisses
When I follow your silhouette
With but my finger
and a sewing pin
Born a line of crimson
With a plum center
However the real thing
Your hips
Is that a separation of lillies
Between kisses?

A-down for dinner
Wearing my soul in my hair
Where you left your hands
Wearing my white on my face
Where you left your seed
Wearing my jacket across my body
Where you left your own
Wearing my boots on my legs
Where you left the ropes (Sometimes for days)
Wearing my spiked wrists
Where I left the scars

Chest to chest
My boots cause a greater height than yours
How dare I dress like this?
The whole family is here?
I'll take off my spikes
But that is all
For these cuts are yours


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